i am..

I am your unfulfilled wish
I am your luck: good or bad
I am your deepest desire
I am your darkest secret
I am your greatest happiness
I am your grimmest fear
I am the reason for your joy
I am the cause of your few tears
I am your smile
I am your unshed tear
I am your greatest hope,
I am your biggest despair
I am the one you are hiding from
I am the one you are trying to find
I am the sweetest poison
I am the bitterest revenge
I am the present you live in
I am the second that passed
I am the future you anticipate
I am the your beginning
I am your end
I am your love
I am your faith
I am the dreams you live in
I am the life you survive on
I am everything you hoped for
I am everything you thought you could never achieve
I am; your everything

~me~

I've slept under the sun,
let the sun shine on me,
let the dark take over

I've tasted the rain
felt the cold seep through

loved, tried to hate, loved even more

laughed till i cried.
walked with all,
walked alone.

.hurt.scared.broken.happy.sad.

been on the edge,
been beyond.
felt the unexplained

fallen..lost..discovered..

seen people change
seen them walk away, the way they came
cried for what i lost
what i gained, what i left behind
laughed on nothing
made mistakes, made the same again
lost, yet won
won, yet lost
I've stared down the face of pain, not knowing where i am.

yet, I'm still standing here today

never...

never do things
which you'd regret
or, only never regret, learn

never do things,
because of which you fall,
from ur own eyes
that you can't even look straight,
even in mirror

never hold back anything
in your heart, soul
it'l never do good to you,
words,
they need to expressed, or else they are worthless

never think you are hopeless
'cause if you were
you wouldn't have existed

never trust people too soon,
it always becomes your biggest mistake
never get attached to people too early
you'll always end up getting hurt

never be too easy,
you'll get laid too soon
and eventually cry over it

never be too difficult,
you'll end up losing best of the people
or rather, you'd never get them

never let people disrespect you,
'cause you are worth every ounce you are

never be afraid of playing, 'cause you maight lose
its the chance you have to take, to learn
never be scared to make mistakes,
they are the stepping stones to practicality

never be too judgemental,
you'l overlook good things
never be too jealous, you'll end up losing a lot
never be scared to accept
at times its the best option

never hurt people, i know it's tough
but you wouldn't want it to happen to you; right!

never get over some body
whom you respected, loved
and who loved and respected you equally,
because somethings are worth holding on

and in the end;
never lose faith in yourself
and him..

dynamics of a relation ship.. ;)

whats mine, whats yours
whats you and whats me..
and there's an us too..
US, i fail to understand

is it give and take,
or give and give
and then get the hate

is it need, or the need to be together
is it everything or its part of something
is it about winning arguments, and losing people
is it about getting hurt, and getting over it

is it always me who goes wrong,
or i am always wrong

is it about being happy,
or making others happy

is it about compromizing,
or respecting the things the way they are

is it about trust,
breaking it, or learning to trust

is it about truth,
or its about few lies too

is it this
or there's something more...

as i come here again..

as i come here again,
i sit and wonder
where i went wrong
what all i won,
what all i lost
some i put on stake
some i just gave away
what all i gathered
and what all i left behind
how i never learn
and always give in;

how i always make same mistakes,
and never learn

i look behind,
and see everything scattered
its just too late to gather

dire consequences of being the one

have you ever cried yourself to sleep,
for someone to whom it didnt matter

have you ever stopped on you way,
just look around and see if you'd find them behind you; waiting

have you ever laughed until tears came out of your eyes,
and you didnt know whether you were elated or more than hurt

have you ever smiled to yourself, thinking about somebody
and then realised that you were smiling

have you missed someone so much,
taht you almost went mad thinking and reliving the moments spent together

have you ever waited for the phone to ring,
hoping it would be them, so you could tell them that you missed them

have you ever wanted to hear anyone saying that they love you,
for its all you want to hear

have you ever called someone and said nothing,
for you don't know where to begin, and all u said was 'nice weather...'

have you ever looked for them,
even when you know that they are gone

have you ever wished that it never happened
atleast you would be happier then

have you wished that you never existed
because it hurts way too much to be you

have you ever been hurt so much,

that it pains to be alive

have you ever thought of dying

because there seems nothing worth surviving for

have you evr thought of turning anonymous
'cause everything in the world seems to be plotting against you, including him