shiny eyes of crazy

now my child
listen to me,
these shining eyes of crazy
have a lot to say
you must listen,
(like you have another way)

the things i look for but i never find.
the greed that makes me blind.
the hope that someday he'll be kind.

i want, i need. so often i scream.
all those things that i dream.

if i show you my secret,
you would die.
what i have in my pocket,
and what i just threw away
little truth and little lies

now my child come closer,
i want you to stay.
these shining eyes of crazy
will show you things,
about which you'll never say.

these are secrets, child.
the words so unkind.
they are mirrors to tomorrow,
and come what may,
if you listen don't
they'll take you away.

these shining eyes of crazy

orange skies

the orange skies,
higher they go
higher they be
the dreams we catch
the things we see
words we hear
aren't meant to be

as life comes

of happy and the mean,
bitter anger and forgotten dreams,
lost love and fairy queens,
finding hope and the unforeseen.

Memoirs of Sorrow

The lost moments,
the forgotten memories.
celebrating happiness and calculating grief
of broken heart and shattered dreams
the unfulfilled wishes and hopes that lost sheen

love that slipped,
the seconds that were missed

inside and out
just don't know how to go about
a piece of me,
part of mine
into oblivion it all sublimes
an extent of pain, another more,
yet another closed door

living everyday,
the memoirs of sorrow

*i*

I let them make me,
now i have none to blame.
I try to deny,
but deep inside i know things aren't the same.

I pay for my actions with my name.

~me~

I've slept under the sun,
let the sun shine on me,
let the dark take over

I've tasted the rain
felt the cold seep through

loved, tried to hate, loved even more

laughed till i cried.
walked with all,
walked alone.

.hurt.scared.broken.happy.sad.

been on the edge,
been beyond.
felt the unexplained

fallen..lost..discovered..

seen people change
seen them walk away, the way they came
cried for what i lost
what i gained, what i left behind
laughed on nothing
made mistakes, made the same again
lost, yet won
won, yet lost
I've stared down the face of pain, not knowing where i am.

yet, I'm still standing here today

as i come here again..

as i come here again,
i sit and wonder
where i went wrong
what all i won,
what all i lost
some i put on stake
some i just gave away
what all i gathered
and what all i left behind
how i never learn
and always give in;

how i always make same mistakes,
and never learn

i look behind,
and see everything scattered
its just too late to gather